I hope this message finds you well. I’ve been pretty busy recently. Raising two children, working, attending two universities, trying to be healthier, embracing love and friendships, self-reflection and the list goes on. Today was a special day, all days are special, but today just a tad bit more. A patient I cared for today requested a hug, after the hug he rested his hands on my shoulders, looked me in my eyes and thanked me. There’s nothing more precious than the gift of gratitude.
As I practice recapitulation, I come back to this precious moment of gratitude and I can’t help but to think of the beauty of life, sacred encounters, purpose, time. Those who know me will hear me say “time is an illusion.” Time is clever….a false sense of security and consistency. With time, there is always something to look forward to; the morning, noon, evening, timely events, work. It’s easy to trust that time will always be there. Will it? We’ll never live this moment again. Time will keep going no matter how much we complain, wallow in regrets, scream or punch a wall.
I once witness a weeping man leaving a patient room, he stopped the first nurse he saw and shouted in heartache, “Don’t wait, if you want to do something do it now! Don’t wait until you’re older. You want it? Do it now! My wife and I worked two jobs our whole lives, raised our kids, gave them everything and now it’s supposed to be our time to live, but now she’s dying!” People around us continued to work as though they didn't hear him, perhaps they didn’t. I stood there, frozen, he stormed out and I remained frozen. Four years later, I can still envision and feel this experience as though it’s unfolding in front of me.
Sweet souls, if there’s anything I have learned thus far it’s to live every moment to the fullest. Stop waiting for the perfect moment to arrive. It’s now. Live it! Tell him you love him. Tell her you love her. Ask for the promotion. Write that book. Go to the doctor. Hug and read to your children. Share love, kindness, compassion and gratitude to all. Smile and hold the elevator door for the next soul. Don’t make a big deal when someone cuts you off, it’s okay to drive in the slow lane. You’ll witness much more in the slow lane, trust me. Turn to the person next to you, right now, and thank them for sharing this journey with you and if there is no one, wrap your arms around yourself the best you can or hold your own hand and express love and gratitude to the beautiful person you have become. For no one, will ever know your journey better than you. Be kind to yourself and know whatever your current situation maybe, your time is now. “You want it? Do it now.”
With love always,